mirai e.
September 15, 2006 | 12:47 PM
曲：風になって – 森山直太朗
you will not believe the dream i had a few days back. i dreamt that kangaroos were chasing me. one of them was in a blue cap or something. it's really amazing that how my morning thoughts appear in my dream in the weirdest ways possible. i woke up and laughed at my stupid dream.
but it did show me that how subconsciously, i am thinking about my next step in life. freaking kangaroos?! i mean, i am that lame even in 90% of the brain i dont use. but tts not the point. melbourne is my point. i do want to go there. and tt means a tough time ahead of me to convince the family. yet, i havent really had many chances to make myself work for what i want. and this goal will do that.
and i think the friends i made in poly have changed me a lot as well. i find myself speaking up more often, slowly having more confidence in myself, and most importantly, learnt to work towards what i want. its that inner peace thing i have been talking about a lot. up till recently, i have been living my life a day at a time, never really thought about what i do want in the future. thats why the inside of me was a mess. and now that i have a gist of an idea of what i want to do, tt feeling of peace is spreading through me. i now know what i want, how to go about getting it, and am confident i can do it. but it will not be easy, i know.
melancholic mood again today eh. but i do want to make it. i realise once i have this goal, every stage of my life now suddenly becomes meaningful. and whether its with him or not, doesnt matter anymore. because i finally understand now, that he doesnt belong in my future. and i will have a good one.
hor darryn hor. must mention him if not he will never come out of that hole of a room where he's cooped up gaming everyday.
love this song. [kaze ni natte] by moriyama naotaro. he has been keeping a low profile, but this song deserves more hype that what its getting. and coincidentally, the cd cover features a boomerang.
hint or what?!
velda.
